My self-esteem has taken a leap of faith down into piercing cold water, like that fucking scene in twilight where bella plunges into the water over the cliff, but I sure as hell I don't want to see edward cullen next to me

I've always thought I was invincible, but words can sometimes creep up slowly like an octopus on it's unsuspecting prey, and then latch on like a parasite as consumption begins.

My heart is filled with ambiguity and remorse.

A tactical shield can only block so much.

I won't cry, but it feels like shit inside.

but

NVM

Nothing personal

"Our greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising every time we fall" - Confucius

Nulla è reale, tutto è lecito. Requiescat in pace.

The yes thing is working out well for me, I don't know how to describe it.

THANKS ANDREW/JUSTIN/ZHONG MING/DIPLOMA OF IMI

I HAZ MODERN WARFARE 2 NAO HAHAHAH

no need to buy (:


CODING TONIGHT, SCRIPTING TOMORROW!

:( Due date tomorrow.

Would like to congratulate all JC students taking 'A' levels, and I just saw a couple of hot JC girls just now. Uniform turns me off generally, but they were hawt. :3

I met ming yang and then this really hot girl walked past us (from biz). Really hot.

Afterwards, I briefly met 'dolly'.

Turned out, he was much better IRL than his cunt-holed, wannabe deep personality online.

I'd have to be responsible to myself and project members, work first!

Modern-fucking-warfare 2 is released today!

Too bad block teaching's going on, the projects are piling up like a pile of shit stacking on the previous piles of shit. If only I could flush it all away ~_~

But I haz to say this term's projects are slightly more fun than the other terms!

I want to learn how to fight >_<

Just had my mock interview today! The interviewer said she felt I was unnatural and scripted - oh well! I guess nothing much I can say about that, I did a little bit of mental preparation. I should not have, but I did anyway (:

If you're thinking of what to say in response, you have no time to listen to people.

Why would a person set fire to his house(killing his children along in the process) and then take a leap of faith?

He was a man who was constantly harassed by loan sharks. Perhaps he considered his suicide and murder(or manslaughter) of his two children mercy killing.

I should be scripting now, but I'm just here to take a break. Keeps me awake, and reminds me of what I have/am doing/have done.

Now now my good friend, this is no time for making enemies. 

My life as of this moment can be defined by one word: apathy.

It's like going home at 3.37a.m in the middle of the night - nobody is around, no cars, no lights(I don't count roadside lamp post thingies as lights), no shit.

You decide to enjoy the cold, still night breeze by taking a slow walk in the middle of the fucking road.

A car turns out of the corner, and is about to knock you over into oblivion and perhaps bloody hell, too.

But what if you can't be bothered to run?

 

 his first kiss

his first duel

but most important,

when he first discovers his purpose in life

My grandma is having a neck tumor thingy operation tomorrow.

I never thought I'd pray to god and ask for something, but please pull her through.

I know she will :)

 I had a great time at the celebration chalet for plant and helena!

And I love my tempu-hadouken.

I want to watch....

+The ugly truth (Katherine Heigl is so hot!)
+Inglourious basterds

Did anyone watch the news last night? The pope was in prague giving a speech and there was a huge spider crawling all over him but he didn't realize it LMAO.

and "F1 Rocks" contained a short clip on people dressed up as F1 drivers doing parkour in singapore. It was pretty normal at start and seen-before acts, such as running on top of the esplanade, but later when they ran ON TOP of the henderson waves, it was a complete "HOLY SCHMOKE!" moment.

The henderson waves do look pretty scary from far, but if you actually went up there to walk it isn't. But if you run on the waves themselves, then it is as terrifying as how it looks from the road.

This came a little bit late, but I love the amount of hot biatches you can find at dempsey hill. 

Have you ever seen hot old bitches, or really young cute girls? I sound pretty perverted here hehe

Anyway, I like to see hot old bitches and really young cute girls cause I like to imagine how hawt they'd be/were in their prime time. Nothing else.

I don't like people who talk like big fucks online.

I don't like people who talk like big fucks online, and challenges your pride.

I don't like people who talk like big fucks online, challenges your pride, and then give you a fake number.

I don't like people who talk like big fucks online, challenges your pride, gives you a fake number, and has no balls to call you even after you've given out your number.

I don't like people who have no fucking balls to meet outside than hiding behind the keyboard acting like fucking big shots.

Big deal ~_~

Life is great! Just decided to get back posting on livejournal.

I just painted my nails on my left hand black, and when I go out wearing a half glove and my fork bracer, i love how people just look at me and wonder, what a fag.

Or more like, what an attention seeking jackass?

I crave attention on many levels, I do. It's part of me. It's human. I Indulge in my humanity instead of finding reasons to make my life as morally right or ethical as possible. That doesn't mean I don't appreciate discretion either.

Anyway, I came across this book in the library, "How to negotiate with anyone, anywhere, anytime." I flipped it open, and went straight to 'Singapore', and it said something along the lines of..


"Don't try to make jokes as singaporeans are numb to humor, unless you are a good friend" (I second that.)

I closed it right after that, and I thought about it. Anyway on my way out of the library I picked up a very interesting book that caught my eye - 

"HOW TO MAKE A NUCLEAR BOMB - and other weapons of mass destruction."

I am a muthafuckin weapon of mass destruction! 

On a more serious note, the scenarios imagined inside are quite frightening, frankly.

Speaking of destruction, alot of people say, "humans will consume themselves."

I think, fuck it. It's natural, its a cycle. Even if there weren't any weapons of mass destruction, it would still happen again. Time and time again.

Oh well,

"I know not what weapons world war III will be fought with, but world war IV would be fought with sticks and stones" - Albert Einstein.

I learnt that from call of duty 4. You know, it's pretty interesting for a war game to have quotes that discourage war.

I am not pro-war. I hate war. But everyday, we still fight over disputes, just not violently. Sometimes, I'd just like to use violence. The right amount of violence can be a very simple solution to a very complicated matter.

Anyway, that's about it. I'd end my blog post with a hilarious joke I came across:

"President sarzozky visited a steel factory, and greeted an employee, morton, with a warm hug.

Fuck it. I'm lazy. I'd just end with one of the most recent jokes.

"Yoyo, taylor, I'm really happy for you and im gonna let you finish, but I think beyonce had one of the best videos of all time! Of all time!"

Justin timberlake tried to use that joke when giving a speech with the gossip girls during the emmy awards and it got a generally cold response, it's so funny how a celebrity can end up whacky after too much saturday night live.

P.s F1 race was boring :O

The grid girls aren't even hot. But that's what you think about most of the time, right, sean? hot girls.

Am I always happy? No. But always hopeful :3

 Advice You Shouldn't Take From Women -
 
"Be yourself"

"We're just looking for nice guys"

-Christina Colangelo


Q.F.T

TP has a new web design, and what can I say? I like it pretty muchies. Fixes lots of bugs and problems/design flaws with the previous design, and it looks a ton better.

I went to PEPO to find "principles of management" and I got a ton of results and the top ones were "Principles of fire safety management" wth

I'm actually in the library right now, my cds class ended early.

I'm still thinking about the New World Order and the existence of the illuminati

Fear. It is present among us, around us. Sit down, and if you just stop and reflect; You will see fear around even an old bitch drinking coffee.

"What will I do later? What if an accident happens? What if I catch influenza A H1N1? What if I get fired because of the global crisis? What if I have no money?"

If your giving is all about getting back, imagine how fearful you would become.

We regret, "I shouldn't have done that, This is unacceptable." Since you have already chosen your choice, make the best out of it.

Most of us when we make a decision, we unconsciously paralyze ourselves. we often decide whether path A is right, or path B is right. Then we go ahead and ask for everybody's opinions, even though we feel the impulses in us. Then we listen to everyone, instead of what makes us happy. Then we feel anxious about what we have chosen. You mindfuck yourself.

If it doesn't turn out the way you want, you try to control the outcome by stressing your brains out.

You blame yourself; You should have chosen the other option.

If it did work out, you ponder if the other way would have been better.

Even if it did work out, and you are no longer enjoying your choice, you still stick with it, because you've invested in it.

How illogical...

Why choose to be right instead of happy, when there is no way to be right?

Many of us are subconsciously operating on a secret barter system, we expect some form of getting in return for giving. When something happens, we fear what we will lose, we become needy, and we get angry, or frustrated.

Seriously, fuck your "What if"s, all your negative bullshit and cynism in your life.

If you are apathetic, wake up.

Get into this world.

Mistakes are learning opportunities, and if you aren't constantly making mistakes in your life, that doesn't mean you're good, but it means you are not living properly.

Whenever you get a choice you dislike, ask yourself. "What can I make out of this situation, what can I learn?".

Stop blaming anything.

"It's everyone's fault because nobody told me that the test was on today!"

So why couldn't you find out yourself?

Why ask why nobody told you, when you could find out yourself?

"It's all his fault because he screwed it up!"

Why didn't you make up for it?

"It's all his fault I'm so worried, he should be glad I'm here."

Why don't you trust him to handle himself? Why do you lack faith in him?

Whatever comes your way, greet it with a smile, make the best out of it.

Instead of protecting and arguing, correct it.

My declaration here is that if you want to unconsciously(or consciously, which the latter is more rare) manipulate me by discouraging, sarcasm, dissing my choices and ultimately lowering my social status/self-esteem, then disappear. I don't want you in my life. I am not a blob of negativity, I see life with pride!!

I'll handle it, whatever comes in my way. No friends? I will find new ones! No money? I will work or I will find a way to earn money. Seriously, what's the biggie??

We have one life. We live it. Most people work so hard in shit they even like and are constantly depressed about shit in their lives instead of learning from it and enjoying the moment, being in the moment.

Instead of focusing your life on just one single shit, like "I don't care about relationships, I don't care about school, I don't care about fitness, I only am concerned on work, I am only concerned on leisure.", adventure! Expand yourself!

Imagine life is a box, you fill it up with relationship.

When you lose it, you lose him, you lose her, there's nothing inside!

No wonder you feel so bored, no wonder you feel so empty.

Make the best of life, stop letting your evil self tell you "You can't do it, you fail, you're not that good, stay where you are, it's risky to continue" etc.

"Who gives a fuck about what you think, mind your own business." etc.

Expel such thoughts! Have faith in the world around you, and most importantly, have faith in yourself.

Whatever it is, trust that you will handle it, and learn from mistakes instead of using it as a point to tell yourself you're not that good.

If you skimmed through this whole piece of shit, I advice you scroll all the way back up and read it.

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Adam Lambert is homo! So is bryan wong, pornsak and chen han wei. I'm not saying it's bad or what, its just funneh in some way.

Cheers luv you <3

Influenza A subtype h1n1 is ownin! I certainly hopeknow(lets be optimistic :D) singapore's defense systems will prevent the h1n1 from reaching a black status.

SRSLY, STOP CALLING THE INFLUENZA A SUBTYPE H1N1 "SWINE FLU". IT'S NOT!! I MEAN SRS BSNS.

Current level: ORANGE

3rd place -
"She's still quite hot and I like her quite alot, though I call her slutface."


2nd place -
"1. 1/10. I was there talking on the phone to her and then I turned around and she waved at me and I was disturbed."


1st place -
"How old is your sister?"

"21."

"Is she hot?"

"No. Don't even think about it."



Going joggin now again.

this shit is in a fucking mess. 4 hours of continuous lab? fuck.

I just vomitted after jogging awhile >.> cunt suck

on the brightside, the 2009 freshmen batch has raised the hotness % by 75% from our batch.

Freshies sound like an abbreviation for noobs, I think that freshmen should be used instead.

New paper advertised 'wearing guy's clothes' for girls. It kinda sucks, it's like I just fucked my boyfriend and I'm wearing his clothes look, quite slutty actually, on the other hand it still looks quite hawt.

/facepalm

 
DEMI LOVATO IN "GET BACK"
(with you)

DEMI LOVATO IN "DON'T FORGET"

WTF DIFFERENT PERSON OR

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no comments /win

Christianu2Uber is now known as... THE ANGRY HOMO KID



as much as I would like to bash the angry homo kid, this guy is damn right.

I keep thinking about death; I wish I could stop it.

Death is inevitable.

I saw a the plaque of a kid who lived from 1992 - 1995.

I have always thought life was fair, but death was not.

Is this the case?

We may never know; Perhaps within death lies rest and peace rather than an eternity of torment and boredom

I don't buy religion shit, by the way.

Reuben:
u wad religion y must folo ppl go pray

Sean:
i no religion

Sean:
but respect my elders

Reuben:
..

Sean:
my relatives all buddhist leh

Sean:
grands also

Reuben:
doesnt mean u must folo

Sean:
my family is the first

Sean:
to stop, become freethinker

Sean:
yea doesnt mean i must follow

Sean:
but if they go alone

Sean:
lonely

Sean:
plus they were great people, the dead

Sean:
the only way i can pay my respects is like that

Sean:
because they wished so before their deaths

Sean:
that we do this to them


On a brighter side of life: Learn to live and not survive; You never know when death comes for you.

I'm now actually at simei, my grandma's place.

The neighbors' kids are so friendly, and I appreciate it. Every time I walk past they run to the window excited, watching me and repeatedly calling me uncle. (I feel respected)

Uncle is a damn cool title.

Fuck drama.

nawt bad at allz but pointlezz moveh. Touching though, kind of.

better than i thawght!

Another downside is teh epic fake explosion effects

solar flares@teh end o.o

EVERYONEELSEEVERYONEELSEEEVERYONEELSEEVERYONEELSEEVERYONEELSE

-

12 rounds - movie that is a draggy race around shit but at least john cena is in it. "Your time iz up! My time iz naow!"

nawt a big fan of WWE or any of the wrestlers but john cena looks cool.

Michael jaxorn rox

Listening alot of "bad" by him lately it rox so hardzation.

Still remember the Large-Disc(LD) days when I used to watch it/listen to it alot when I Was a kid too lawl

lolspeeeek

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ACPsfcsg4ZE

Your Butt Is Mine, Gonna Take You Right
Just Show Your Face, In Broad Daylight
I'm Telling You, On How I Feel
Gonna Hurt Your Mind
Don't Shoot To Kill
Come On, Come On,
Lay It On Me All Right...

I'm Giving You
On Count Of Three
To Show Your Stuff
Or Let It Be . . .
I'm Telling You, Just Watch Your Mouth
I Know Your Game, What You're About

Well They Say The Sky's the Limit
And To Me That's Really True
But My Friend You Have
Seen Nothing
Just Wait 'Til I Get Through . . .

Because I'm Bad, I'm Bad-
Come On
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
You Know I'm Bad, I'm Bad-
You Know It
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
You Know I'm Bad, I'm Bad-
Come On, You Know
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
And The Whole World Has To Answer Right Now,
Just To Tell You Once Again, Who's Bad . . .

The Word Is Out, You're Doin' Wrong
Gonna Lock You Up
Before Too Long,
Your Lyin' Eyes, Gonna Take You Right
So Listen Up, Don't Make A Fight,
Your Talk Is Cheap, You're Not A Man
You're Throwin' Stones, To Hide Your Hands

++ assassins creed 2 teaser o.o

access teh animus again weeeeeeeeee

++LOL@harry potter trailer, when I saw it i was startled like theres some sort of blip in teh matrix, don't these scenes look exactly like they are from LOTR?  LOL I was like WTF mixed up trailer or


there was an extremely quick glance of a ring bring put on of some sort

all of a sudden gandalf teh gray appears and it looks like he's fighting the balrog. Oh wait, that is dumbledore around flames

and oh oh wait there was a flash of voldemort in the trailer and his expression made me lulz so i had to do something with it, i didn't know what at first but I just went along with it and kinda got it


hell yeh az advertized bai lawd volthemord wifz teh lulz

+++lulz@this

who the fuck will fall for this shit

rofl@second late night gaming with ks lulz

last nite hero siege until 0_0

my caucasian neighbour is supah friendly i even go coffehshop with him LULZ

Never trust anyone, especially cheena rawr ;..;

Not tryin to be racist or anything, but shit happens

There wuz this chef and his friend/co-worker of 3 years cheated him of 500k. farking imbal. came out in the news sum time ago

Mah dad also tells me of his friend's sexperience.

His friend was a relatively wealthy man; he had a friend-cum-worker for 18 years.

The worker wanted to open a herbal shit store back at china.

He helped that cheena guy pump in moneh and all, until when he had about 40 branches due to it's success, the guy disacknowledged mah dad's friend.

18 years!

Its strictly business; not personal.

Don't trust anyone and nevah compromise

Aprils fools was funny:

Youtube had the flippin' upside down shit, diablo 3 had archivist, sc2 had terratron, and wow had kael'thas sunstrider presents azeroth dance crew so lulz

and i cannot express my ._. - ness with this:

Za

02-Apr-2009 11:28
Lol sean you got go rebel ah?

     S              if I was your vampire says:
wad does rebel mean in the dictionary, tell me

Za™ is losing it = ( says:
don tell me u went rebel on sat?.. rebel is a famous club at clark quay la u dumb..
 

[18:45:15]Neriylle Say:
i go bathe then i go call my friend alr!
[18:45:15]starforqe Say:
cb sia
[18:45:17]Neriylle Say:
LOL
[18:45:20]starforqe Say:
why call
[18:45:22]starforqe Say:
don call la
[18:45:25]Neriylle Say:
fuck you
[18:45:25]starforqe Say:
girl rite :D
[18:45:29]Neriylle Say:
yeah
[18:45:29]Neriylle Say:
: D
[18:45:32]starforqe Say:
lulz
[18:45:33]Neriylle Say:
LOL
[18:45:43]starforqe Say:
you went
[18:45:43]starforqe Say:
out
[18:45:46]starforqe Say:
with her just now ah
[18:45:47]Neriylle Say:
no la
[18:45:53]Neriylle Say:
just now got global citizenship
[18:45:56]starforqe Say:
._.
[18:45:56]Neriylle Say:
fucktard dance
[18:45:57]Neriylle Say:
LOL
[18:46:4]Neriylle Say:
yesterday i went her house though
[18:46:5]starforqe Say:
whats that
[18:46:7]starforqe Say:
wow
[18:46:9]starforqe Say:
got do anything?
[18:46:16]Neriylle Say:
naww


AWWWW HUAI NEVA DO ANYTHING!?!

Don't get needy or inevitable fail :p

still wan call her lulz

Anyway I got akmal lovin' park eun kyung too hee hee she rox

we rike prastic gerz

everyhuan lubs coreans

hmm.. tip of teh dae: Girls don't go for lower status males so dont put yourself down to seem humble, don't do self-depocrating humor, don't joke about how unlucky you are how you are a klutz

Time is relative. Teh faster you are travelling, the slower actual time goes for you, from the observer's point of view, given that the observer is in our 'normal' time. What if we could use traversable wormholes, time dilation to travel back in tyme!?!?

I wanch to traver bak in tyme...

Guess why?

Death pains me, death inspires fear in me

I am more afraid of death than anything else.

I was looking at a photo gallery which one of my friends linked me to, and the photos there almost made me cwai!

A particular photo - A son holding his dads trousers in his arms tightly next to the spot he is gonna be buried.

The thought of it broke moi heartzx! I donch wanch to be the boi!


From world press images or something like that.

Gory ones of war here:
http://www.chris-floyd.com/war/

I want to travel back in time, prevent 911 and all this war from happening.

And if I can't I'll just try, even.

What's the difference between a soldier and a killer? A soldier fights to keep what he loves, which often requires taking of lives. To serve with pride. For a killer, death is all that defines them.

Most of the people would want to travel back in time to change something they regret, like about a guy or a girl or studies but I don't think so.

Are you glad about where you are right now, how much you've done to come here?

If you changed that particular moment, say you could have gotten secks with that bitch, or you couldve earned a million dollars, you probably would result in an entirely different person from what you are now.

A few days ago I was at the mandai crem with my grandmother and relatives/whatever. Went to visit my grandpa.

They burned him a gold-colored paper mercedes-benz, a maroon massage chair and lots of other stuff.

I thought it was pretty sad; So many people dead, all here.

I walked around to look at all the other plaques of the people 'resting' over there, and two plaques caught my attention. One was an old lady, the photograph was blurry and whatever/ shows that she didn't take alot of photos and that one was probably cropped out from a photograph. So, in future, take formal "funeral-like" photos at some point so that if god forbid, you walk out and a pot of plants lands on your head, you have a good photo.

Another one - this one had cookies on it. I thought, "So sweet, he must have loved cookies."

Personally, I don't believe in this shit. If this offends anyone, cry and take a video and then upload it to youtube and show it to me, then you can redeem a free hug from me.

Like mr mikey jackson, I want to live forever! I never want to have myself under soil, floating in the sea, in a plaque, or floating in space!

Well, I just can't accept that all this is going to change, all this is going to end someday.

Some people want to be buried and not burned. What's the point when in the end everybody is going to be dug up and be disposed of?

I asked my mother, why not bury yourself overseas then, if singapore needs space?

You'll be a very lonely person, nobody will visit you.


Well, it's not like anyone would really visit me when I die anyway :/
(self-deprocating time!)

second tip of the day: Logic is teh enemy! Don't ever convince a girl to rike u logically cause it doesn't work! Never try to see how a girl sees things in your own eyes. How they see things and how we see things, are entirely different shiat :(

When you start talking about science and death or suicide, abortion and lousy topics like that it usually turns them off bad unless you got a geeky one.

I like those topics :D

Anyway my bro is out of teh jonas fevah and now he listens to metro-station, which is trace cyrus' band(miley cyrus' half brother).

My brother is such a disney whore

third tip of teh day: when a girl says something about you, don't take it personal! It may only be something about your comment or something, but strike back!

In all, just be comfortable&have fun! Focus the conversation/outing/whatever on fun, and not an objective!

This post is pretty random, I just thought that I'd share with you thoughts of mine.

Happy birthday faz&joys! in advance... or not.

edit:

p.s LOL AT HIVE APRILS FOOL FOR GLORY TO MOTHER RUSSIA AND MUPPETS RICKROLL AHHAHA

GLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORY TO MOTHA RUSSIAH!


rickrolld... COMRADE? LULZ


lenin o.o